"Firsts" ~ without YOU
I went to the store without you to get dog food and coffee. That was a first for me since you've left your earthly body.
I walked the isles of Walmart without you. You use to have to hold the cart. I walked alone.
I've mowed the lawn several times without you here watching me from your swing.
I had to figure out how to turn the water off under the house.
I've watched TV alone.
I no longer hear your shoes clomp down the hallway.
I not longer have to hear you walk into the bathroom door if I don't leave it open for you.
I have to keep the light on for myself when I come home in the dark.
After I come home from a hike - you aren't here.
I want to physically talk to you.
I often go into your room and say my name out loud to myself, just to hear my name being called.
(that especially brings the tears)
I still make a full pot of coffee each day even if I drink a half a cup.
I bought groceries the other day. Brought them home and realized I had way too much.
I had the family for dinner for the first time since you've left.
Played with the grand babies here without you - its hard each time.
For the first time - I GET to pick up all the damn leaves in the yard. NEVER ENDING! Even have used the leaf blower.
Bedded down the garden without you.
Finding your treasures for the first time.
Making the house payment - paying the bills - selling items - cleaning our your shop - saying good-bye to your earthly things - saying good-bye to Jenna - feeling sorry for Pawko - Lucy is a stinker - cleaning the house - making decisions alone . . . .
On and On like a flowing river - FIRSTS - and never lasts - without you!
All the little things you did for me - I am so grateful for.
Thank you, Brent Day, "I LOVE YOU"
